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Thursday, January 28, 2010

And more!

ME BabY and my gIrls;> L0ved

Last two days i never write as i was having a very bad gastric hees:) yup so lt me check what happened last two days... hmmm.. okay so on wednesday i was having a really bad gastric really bad so i'm very quiet in class. And that night i couldn't sleep and only slep for like 1 hour! can you believe it? hahs.. it was super bad and at 3 am, i still have time to message my girlfriend ame, happy birthday! haas i was suppose to msg her at like 12 but the pain just kills me till i forgotten. But yup. then my sis wake me up like afte minutes i slept and she said whats wrong with me well actually she asked not said.. i'm really bad in english, gosh.. hees, pk so, she asked whether i'm having stomach ache so, yup i told her. She knew as she smell the mixed medicated oil( tiger balm, telon and axe) so yeah... then its still painful so she rubbed it for me. Okay so i went to school blah blah and i feel abit more better i dunno why but yeah:)

So yesterday i after went to school and stuff, at around 4 plus fan2 msged and said sorry and stuff and not going to school and will be away till like, sunday then i was like wth... haas i mean i know he told ai that singapore is like gonna go down the drain! Vanish and destroy! i mean well if its already our fate to die, why must we run away from it? i myself is very afraid to die but going to religious class where my ustadz and ustazah give talks and tell us more about islam and they make sure that our total believe system is right. So, i couldn't help laughing and i was like he and his family is really cute:) hees. Okay and today nothing much but my stomach is really much much better!

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28.1.10

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Today is sure unlucky day and anyway i wanna say happy birthday to my cousin Salihin!!! At times i feel that i just want to kill myself. I feel so tired living eventhough i'm just 14+. I never have any intention to repeat what i used to do last time(2008). Why no one understands me? I dunno who i could trust i dunno who i can talk to when i'm down. No one really understands me. All i need is space, understanding and a chence to have my space and freedom. I didn't mean no one could care about me but dun go over than that. Haix and today i disturb pek and ai like say, say sorry to her, say sorry to her and keep saying that and today very first time i asked her to shut up. And i told her that she's noisy.
Well Amin is really bad, he, chin siong likes to disturb me about my ear.. :( I swear i didn't ask for it and its very irritating when they disturb me about it. Haix why am i so 'special' what others dun have, i have? haix what am i suppose to do? I guess i'll end it here today:) Kinda not really in a mood for anything:)

Toodles! cherrio

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26.1.10

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Whoa!! Hahs.. Okay so just now walk with hc from school:) gosh i think he's so cute! at least better than my ex. I mean i don't want to compare but just i don't kn0w i hope who ever read this and happens to be my ex, please... dun get angry kay? Very soon i'll put up his picture but not that much. But sadly he will be going to australia:( Haas.. He said my voice is good, nice but sooo not lahr right? i feel my voice suck and worst than any other person. And his voice, very very nice:) hees. He can beatbox, SIng, play piano, play guitar and i swear i would want to find someone like him:) HE's kinda like my ex, shaun but whatever it is my story and shaun's is way too long ago and he forgets about me already i guess. Anyway, Hahs. Yesterday messaged with fan2 like long lahr.. HEees and fan2 smoke but i hope he will stop smoking:) really..

Just now we're like talking about ai and again. Ai, if u read this dunn think as if we're talking like bad things about you. Haix, we only talk and joke around. But i mysef feel that u are different now. I mean about the same but sometimes we could not take it with your behaviour. I myself it's not a perfect person., Maybe some pints about me made u hate me but i hope who ever i've hurt, forgive me;>

Toodles.. Got to go have religious class later:) cherrio!!

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21.1.10

Harloo!! Okay today is nothing much. Hahs. Me and my three other school mates, ai, pek and iq, we talk and stuff like normal talks. Today is very relaxing. And at last i heard hdhz voice hahs:) he has a cute voice(break o'readi) and well he's talking like dunno ah dunno ah haha:) But there's few lines that shocked me when i asked him about some one else. I can't describe who, i just dun wanna her that person's feelings:)He dunno arh i think ---'s ---- and he said dunno arh again. Hahas:) Today too i and fan2 really start messaging as always msged me but i never answer. Cool i guess. I just angry with sufian today, he was like talking about me, some parts that is so 'special' about me;> I dunno what to say, ai always say she hates piq and does not want to talk about him but why she still talks about him? Sometimes i don't really get my friends, i mean i couldn't understand them. But whatever it is, they too doesn't understand me either. We're close but they could not understand my feelings or each other's feelings. And i have three other very good friends :) Nawa, Ame and Li:) but sometimes i dun feel that we're close enough. We rarely meet, rarely talk but i swear i miss them so much:) Everytime when their birthday's reaching i would want to do something special so that they would remember. They are the lot that is important to me. Very important i would say. Okay, Schooling tomorrow so i guess i have to be sleeping now;> cherriooo!!

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21.1.10

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Today in school is like whoa... Mr kahar(form teacher) changed our sitting arrangement again!!! errgghhh... it is so irritating to be surrounded with guys around me:( haix.. Then YS was like staring at me lahr as he was waiting for me to laugh. I can't help it if someone stares at me when i'm studying or when i'm like doing nothing, cos i will laugh!! but i get so irritated when YS took my pencil case but even he knew that i would laugh afterall.Then CS and the rest was like following and laughing at me. HEES;> Fan2 was like badlahr bcos he asked them to stare at me, cos he himself everytime stares at me with his big goldfish eyes:) haas. He's kinda cute at times but i hate when he talks about smoking and stuff.. I seriously hate smokers! Even my dad smoke and my brother as well but i swear i don't like when people smoke. Even i don't. Haix i wish all the smokers that close to me, please stop smoking, its for your own good my dearest:) Hahs so yeah today is a very tiring day. Too much stuff i have to think about these days. Bout my bro,hyk, my friends, ai, iq and like my cousins! So stressing me out. My studies.... gosh when will i get to rest from all this? Cherrio!!

Those pics! Retro time!!

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20.1.10

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

My friends the ones i'm always with. Wass close but we're not together all the time:)
But ai is not in:(

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19.1.10

Today school was like so damn fun, funny and painful for me. Ouch! hahs... in the morning i brought my own food for recess hees. I need to save up some cash for the upcoming birthdays!! hees. Okay now, in school i was like normal, my bag is heavy really. And i saw Herald Chia!!! hahs... he's a relief teacher in school. But it's for the time being as he's going to study in australia for about 3 years:( His voice is super, i mean when he sings and he could play guitar and play piano!!! OMG its because i'm so totaLly in love with piano and guitar!! he has 2 guitar and his birthday is like in the month of march! and he is kinda totally just like someone i know. Someone i use to love. Hees.. but this teacher is extra cute somehow!! hees.. he's 23 this year wow isn't it? hahs... When he smile and laugh its really confirm cute. He looks like as if he's like 18 or 19 hees:) Just now he plays the piano, and he play monkey with us i mean the one we have to have monkey in the middle and yeah;)

okay then it is recess and wow it was great... eating my own food brought from home. And ai, my friend was like faster faster faster and i accidentally bit my own finger(pinkie) ouch... i could feel like as if it cracks. cos i bite extra hard this time. hahs. And my finger bleed.. eventho its just one dot. hahs. Wheys got to go. cherrio

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19.1.10

Monday, January 18, 2010

Hey... hello everyone! My name is Zarah. As for my real full name i guess i should keep it to myself and for the ones that knows me, well whats there to introduce about. Okay, the fact is for years i have blog but i never log on to write. So yeah, i thought it was a waste of time. And my friends ai and more have told me umpteen times or even ask why i never ever write on blog. Well now i sure do. Just hoping i could continue yeah? Well i need your guidance because blogging is not really my type you see.. hees;> Okay.. Well, i'm single yeah and not ready to mingle:) Today is my first day writing like about myself and yay!!! i did it! i know my blog is very simple but yeah the post is much more important than the layouts aite? okay. Wheys i got to go yeah? Try to log on tomorrow!! cherrio!

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18.1.10